hear me out will you?

i apologized to him. he said it's fine and that i wasn't the only one feeling the pain. so now we're friends again but I've no idea how to be friends again with him(with you). I am so scared. So scared. Like a child left in a playground with no friends.

I am scared i don't know if you are. those awkward silences and answers they're my fears. and ofcourse you're my fear. i can't even look at you straight in the eye anymore.. I'm scared of al the "so.." and the "mhmm"
and the "How are you?" and automatically replied with a " I'm ok.you?"

are you scared of them too?

I just hope( that's all i can do nowadays)! Hope that maybe you can help me and come up and talk to me or maybe message me when we're online. Things are going to be so awkward they're no like how they were last time we can't go all ape-shit anymore we can't tease each other 'till we can't even think of things to tease each other with. We can't. and i am(was,always will) just wish we can..just be how we were before things got complicated.please?


regine says:
it'll be utterly awkward
with all the "mhmm.."
"so.."
how's life" "it's ok..yours?"
i cnt go all ape shit with him anymore you retard
**Rona <33>
haha]tht hurts
regine says:
yesyes/
so now see my point?

YAYYYYYYYY.

1 WEEK OF NOOoooOOO school.whoopie:]

My thirteen-year old self would never thought things would change so much, as in drastically within 365 days. I would have thought things would never change but they did. oh how much i hated it when things had to change, i was and still am one of those people who hates change i never liked it unless ofcourse it's for the good..

I know that I have grown quite a lot for the past year. I am more mature i know very little about lots of things yadayadayada..

Compared to last year i think my birthday this year was much better. Because for the first time I celebrated it with the greatest bestfriends i can ever have! Sometimes i wonder why God gives such great things to us and give such terrible ones too:]

At the last hour or so of my birthday, I know that from this moment onwards things will change. After all the change that's been happening it's just so comforting to know that not all things,will change.

365 days. Bring it on:]

so first post of the year.yay!!

so 2009 quite a lot has happened, well not a lot a lot but it seemed a lot. well first of all my Grandma(dad's side) got sick so we had to go back to Philippines on the 25th so we kinda spent half our christmas day in the plane across the ocean and on the way to the airport. then we spent our new year in the hospital. which was not that bad i mean granny's getting better already and stuff:]
then TODAY my heel got ran by a motorcycle well it's actually a tricycle it's a mode of transpo over here. long story short I was being myself and ta-daaaa! i get ran by a moving object:]

New Year's Resolution:
1. I'm gonna be as quiet as a mouse this year
2. Try not to get hit by any fast/slow moving objects esp. MOTORCYCLES
3. try and remember no.2
4. buy some new books instead of clothes.

basically that's it wanted to put "try to lose weight" but yeah who am i kidding right?:]