i will survive.

i will! 5 sets of 10 inclined push-ups 5 sets of 20 squats 3 sets of 10 leg lifts 2 sets of 50 arm rowing 15 minutes on the stationary bicycle 15 minutes on the treadmill like thing FOR A MONTH. I can do this! I WILL SURVIVE. It's not that much I know BUT STILL! MIND OVER MATTER REGINE! before i went all crazy shit about getting thinner i knew it's gonna be really extremely hard..BUT I DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE THIS HARD where my muscles hurt and I can't walk up the stairs and my tummy muscles ache that i feel like I can't eat anything because i might just end up throwing up.. BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS. I WILL DO THIS I CAN DO THIS.

lameLAMElameeeeeeeee

My name starts with an S
I hate my name.
Actually, I like it
My last name fits well with my first name
I'm really hungry right now.
Especially for tacos.
I'm not hungry, I just ate and I'm stuffed
I think of random things and too shy to let people know
I think of random things and I say them outloud.
i have gotten a manicure
i have gotten a pedicure
i could never let anyone touch my feet
I have gotten a professional massage
Nah, I just got a massage from a friend/or boyfriend/or girlfriend
I'm straight
i'm bi
I'm gay
the lights are off in the room that I am in
I can't sit in a room with the lights off
I'm afraid of the dark
I sleep with a night light.
I love ramen noodles.
i pronounce ramen noodles as ray-men noodles.
i listen to superchick
i listen to pop
punk
hip hop
r&b
rap
christian
metal
classical
country
other.
I use AIM
I use MSN
Screw messaging services. that's whats texting for.
i am such a text-aholic.
i have unlimited texting.
i have verizon.
^sorry i don't live in USA:]
i have sprint.
i like my phone.
i buy new phones constantly
my favorite color is black
my favorite color is:
orange
Green
Red/any shades of red.
Yellow
Blue
Indigo
Violet
other.
i like taking pictures especially of myself.
people tell me that i smell bad
screw that, i smell amazing
ii t@lk lyKe diz
or ii talk liike thiis<3
i hate it when people type like that.
I'm all about good grammar and I correct everything that I sea, oops I mean see.
My sense of humor is ironic.
my sense of humor is lame
my sense of humor is...weird.
i love it when i can make people laugh
actually, i don't have a sense of humor.
i don't like country, but i do like some of cassie underwood's songs
i'm sleepy
i'm cold
i'm hot
i hate when people use this: =] as a smily face.
i don't believe in god.
i love jesus
i'm agnostic
i'm an athiest
i'm buddhist
i practice withcraft
i'm muslim
i'm jewish
screw religion, i'm nothing
i'm straight edge
i'm DEFINITELY not straight edge.
i've had a one night stand and got pregnant
i've had a night stand and didin't get pregnant.
i love my boyfriend
i love my girlfriend
i'm single and depressed about it
i'm single and i'm alright with it
i'm single and i LOVE it
i love to go camping
^i hate it
i have gone fishing in my life


GAH please i need to get out of the house NOW.someoneoeeeeeeeeeeeee save me!

is that you?

i saw this person while i was in Parkson doing the annual Christmas gift shopping.. and well i was cranky and all that, so i was standing watching my mom blabber about which one to give to some little girl i don't even really know and suddenly out of the corner of my eye i saw this person. I'm not sure if that person is THAT person but i wished it was.. I wanted to go up to that person you know to just check if it was THAT person but.. i was and still am scared it was like my feet were glued to the floor i couldn't walk and i couldn't pay attention every single living cell of my body was stuck trying to figure out if that person was THAT person..

It's like everything as in EVERYTHING was in slow motion and like the whole world just for that few minutes has disappeared and it was just me and THAT person. Just us. I thought during that period of our lives that we'll never be apart that we're gonna be together until we're old and crippled you know the usual "grow-old-with-you" but it didn't end up like that and i know for a fact that probably that's for the best.. but there's this part of me that small voice saying "you know you still love him. talk to him come on you can do it!" and then there's the big voice the big boss "NO GIRL! You will NOT do that to yourself! He said he didn't l**e you anymore right? you suffered for quite a while and now look at you you are getting better pleasePLEASEplease don't hurt yourself again?".

i just hope something good will come out of this.

p/s i think i'm still inlove with you.

second born. second best.

"the world doesn't revolve around you regine! but it can with your sister!"

nothing ever in my short 13 years ever made me feel so small and worthless. this are some of the things why sometimes i just feel like..idk just burst into small particles. i know i'm not perfect. and i know and i've always known i can never be like my sister.

"second born, second best"