"Don't know what to do anymoreI've lost the only love worth fighting forI'll drown in my tear storming seaThat would show you, that would make you hurt like me"

if.

almost!

i almost got hit by a motorcycle.
uhuh. i almost did. and the funny thing is I found the whole thing FUNNY like seriously funny.
I was on my way to the car and i was waving bye to Jas and Pau too and i didn't notice it coming and my mom went all "REGINNNEEREGINNEEE" then i looked at her way and i saw the motorbike just 1mm away from me.

the WHOLE thing seemed really funny to me..and when i got inside the car obviously the parents scolded me-__- but the whole time the whole 5-6 minutes drive back to our house i thought to myself that IF I did get hit by that motorbike i would probably be BADLY injured and bleeding and all those crap that comes with it..but what scared me was the fact that MY parents AND bestfriends would be there to witness the WHOLE thing.. i'm not scared of the fact that i almost got hit by a motorbike. I'm scared that.. the people I love the most in the world had to see it.

oink.

you are one heck of a funny *guy*. you're so funny you make me hate you to the pit of my stomach. i mean i know it's NONE of my business BUT EUGH i hate you. YOU make it sound like WHAT we had was TERRIBLE. i mean HOW it ended was TERRIBLE. I HATE YOU. you make it sound or seem or whatever you name it that the time you were with me.those "feelings" you had were just one BIG HUGE GENORMOUS(i know it doesn't exist) mistake!! it's so funny that it's making me hate you even more. it's so funny that..

that you make me feel like the time i spent with YOU is just wasted time.

it's THAT funny.

I'm inlove..(again?..)

i'm burning them off baby.

yeap. this is my life changing experience.i signed myself up into a gym.yep a gym. I AM BURNING THESE CALORIES OFF LIKE A MAD WOMAN.YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
that's my promise to myself i have to be thiinner by next summer!be able to wear a bikini(>.<).without caring.OR FEELING INSECURE.
i'm gonna burn them off.
so please ladies and gentlemen say goodbye to the "old" me and say hello to the "NEW.FRESH.INSPIRED.AND EVERYTHING NICE." Regine:] My papa was kinda you know all "why do you have to join?you're NOT FAT what!!" it's such a sweet thing my papa said that but really daddy dear i think i know better when it comes to MY physical appearance. I mean I may NOT be THAT fat but I am CHUBBY and i know these fats are just probably baby fats but I have to lose them 'cause well if you really wanna know the reason..well even if you don't i will tell you : D I'm sick of people teasing me telling me that I'm fat and people have been calling me that ever since i knew how to walk,talk and ofcourse EAT. It's annoying and depressing at some point because I may( and all the other people who were called "fatty" or "fat ass") pretend that you know we don't take this kind of things seriously..but deepdeepdeep down inside we do. I do. so i've decided to do this to PROVE to those people that I have to do this. I can do this. I will do this.


chaox3


some things i bet you didn't know about me:
1. my waist line when i was 6years old was 33 cm
2. i never had friends(real friends) when i was younger due to my size

"And I loved him. God, how I loved him. It wasn't love of course, even now I can see that it was infatuation. But at the time it damn near killed me. It's so passionate, so intense, so painful, that even years afterward you still feel hurt when you hear their name."

i'm sorry.

i don't feel like i should blog for a few days.

chaox3


some things i bet you didn't know about me:
1. i like being busy.

<3

HI MY NAME'S PENELOPE

the feeling you get when you know you've finally let go of something.
something that's been bothering you for quite a while now.
it feels like heaven even though i have no idea which route to take or what to do.
but it's heaven
:]

chaox3


some things i bet you didn't know about me:
1. i was named by our "special"(!) english teacher Mr.Raj Penelope
2. i secretly love the name(XD)

finally?

i haven't updated for like what..2 days?idk well here's something i found so yeah..


we used to be so close,
but now we can be standing
right beside each other and it
feels like we're a million miles apart.




it felt like that..it will always feel like that starting from now on right?

if

we sent Rona off to the airport last night she's now back at home..i miss her like hell though can't wait for her to come back

i wanna go to the beach.spent a few days on the beach just relaxing..i mean i don't like to swim i'm not really good at it but i just love being near the beach you know?